Long time
I know it’s been a super long time, and it sure feels like it. Life has been a very full experience in the last 6 months-lots of changes, challenges, transitions and new insights.
Even during the hardest times, it never once felt like I was abandoned by the Universe to be left to my own devices, left to hack myself out of the briar patch. It just felt like I was put in that position intentionally to learn, to grow. I needed to have that experience, to be in that space; I needed to taste all that sweetness, all that bitterness, deal with all that heartbreak and anguish and frustration, to finally steer me to a place of clarity, acceptance and surrender…
It was good to observe that even after all that beating and falling down, the center of my core remains absolutely intact, not a scratch, not a bump, it remains ever so pristine and clear, without an ounce of fear and doubt. It almost felt like a test, a test of the firmness of my beliefs.
Even as a kid, I treasured Freedom. I remembered clearly at the age of 10 or 11, arguing with my parents that I was not getting enough trust and freedom from them. I felt like I was old enough to deserve these “basic rights”. I have always felt imprisoned by the rules set by other people, by the society, by my own parents, by the school system, by the army, and, and, and….the list goes on…The truth is I never really feel completely happy when I am told what to do and what not to do. I have always felt that the “freedom to be” thing is just as basic and just as important and life-sustaining as breathing. I have always despised people who are judgmental and critical and impose their ways and beliefs on others. “Live and let live”, that’s always been one of my motto.
So, I am still on this quest to live this freedom, to keep opening myself up to the Universe, to savor all the fruits Life has to offer, to take every step with complete trust and honesty and grace, to give and receive love as freely and naturally as sunrise and sunset.
My plan is to continue making music, writing, singing and playing songs that inspire openness, acceptance and love. I had a journalist asked me the other day how I resolve to promote peace through my music, which I thought was an awkward question. To which I replied in the most spontaneous and honest way I know how, I said that it is not up to me to promote anything, and really there is nothing to promote, because all that we ever need and want, we were given since the day we were born. My job here is just to help return our attention back to the beauty that surrounds us and resides within us.
